Adulthood Blues

So I just came back from the engagement party of one of my closest friends in highschool.

The only thing I got from it, asides from blisters due to dancing in five inch heels, is that I feel that I haven’t done anything with my life since I graduated highschool. I’m 22 now, and it’s been 6 years, and what exactly have I done so far to show that the past 6 years have been productive? Not a hell of a lot.

I don’t have a boyfriend, I don’t have a degree (yet), I don’t even own a car yet and financial savings? What’s that?

It’s safe to say I’m having a “youth-life crisis”. I need to secure my future, but at what cost? Do I sacrifice my dream of traveling and living overseas for a white picket fence and 2.5 children? Argh!

I seriously feel like the hands of fate are conspiring against me. My highschool friend gets engaged, my brother’s fiancee is visiting from Japan next week, my cousin is planning his wedding for November this year and to top it all off, this evening at work I had to train a new girl who is newly engaged. Like… what? Is this all some kind of cosmic hint that I’m supposed to get?

My ‘Wishlist of things I Wish I Could Complete for 2012′

Considering how hard-pressed I am for time these days, I thought it would be a good idea to jot these ‘To Do’ items down. I’ll probably not get around to doing it, but dear God, lets hope I do – I’ve been procrastinating for far too long.

  • Reread The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien before the movie comes out
  • Reread The Hunger Games by Stephanie Collins before the movie comes out
  • Send out international postcards to the numerous people I’ve promised (Amelia, being one!)
  • Finish my Secret Compartment Book craft project
  • Print out my photos from my trip to India and do something artsy with it
  • Plan my travels for 2012 i.e. to Hawaii and Canada

So much to do, so little time!

Merry Christmas!

I absolutely cannot believe how fast the year has just passed me by. Look at this! It’s Christmas already!

I know my blog-presence hasn’t been keenly felt the past few months since I returned from holidays, but I promise that it won’t stay that way when the new year comes around.

I just wanted to wish you all a wonderful holiday season, no matter how you celebrate.

From humungous family gatherings where it’s non-stop belly-stuffing and passing out from either your uncle Tim’s terrible storytelling or the half-chilled champagne.

Chilling in your backyard with your closest mates all huddled around a smoking barbecue, everyone with a beer in hand.

Huddled around a fire because it’s snowing where you live and you’re bundled up with mitts and a beanie, hardly even able to grasp at your hot chocolate in a festive Christmass-y mug.

Or in solitude, with a good book in one hand, a cigarette in the other and your mum on speakerphone as you wish your loved ones Merry Christmas.

Cherish these moments, everyone!

Drive safe, be grateful and find something to smile about.

Am I late on the Cassandra Clare bandwagon?

I’ve just finished reading the first two books from Cassandra Clare’s Mortal Instruments series, and can I seriously send out a really big promo for her? For an author who started off writing Harry Potter fanfiction, she’s gone a long way.

I love her characters!

Usually if there are too many strong personalities I get turned off reading through to the end but, holy shit on a stick, her characters seem like people I actually know. Blame the fifteen year old still trapped in this body of mine, but I can say that I’ve had to set the book down and squeal into my pillow. Yes, no shame, no shame.

I checked out her official website to read a bit more abo– and, oh my — is that an online jewelry store dedicated to The Mortal Instruments? *Greedily scrolls through the beautiful, sparkly gems* … And I’ve successfully ruined Books 3 and 4 for myself. Somebody needs to stick up “SPOILER” tags on that bloody jewelry website!

Urgh. Anyway.

Where have I been, you may ask? The above post makes it obvious. Buried between the pages of yet another book.

Till next year! Hah!

Life goes on

Ah. And so begins the post-travel stress: the routine you have to get used to, dealing with the weight you gained while you gorged yourself on 5 weeks of blissful carelessness, the friends whose lives you have to catch up on and the dealing of insect bites that just won’t seem to go away!

It feels so mundane to return to the life you left so eagerly in the first place.

Still, I’ll be grateful for small pleasures. I’ll never forsake my bed ever again. My body is currently covered with about two dozen bed bug bites that itch like crazy. I actually look like a science experiment gone wrong: I have white splotches everywhere where I applied Calamine lotion to stop the itching. Ugh, I have bites on the knuckles of my fingers which make it hard to bend when I write.

I will always be grateful for home cooked meals. As ritzy as it is to eat at restaurants three meals a day, it’s a drain on not only your money but your taste buds. I texted my dad and put in a specific order of my favourite homecooked meal: Filipino arroz caldo, and as soon as I got into my house I dove straight into a bowl of that yummy goodness.

I will never take people’s honesty for granted, even if it hurts me. Too many times in India we were lied to and pulled into the charade of being “helped”. Too many times were we hassled by touts insisting they’re innocent bystanders and trying to aide the lost and naive tourists where the only end goal was to cheat us of our money. Honesty earns its weight in gold.

I’ll always be grateful for growing up in a multicultural and egalitarian society. Being a “westernised” woman travelling in India is incredibly hard. They say in several guidebooks that the locals don’t mean any harm in their staring and is their way of expressing interest in you, but no. No. As much as I tried to get used to the stares, it didn’t help that the locals would openly gawk, some with hostility in their faces and without any discretion. It also didn’t help that when you’re walking on the streets, the gender balance is at about 98% men. Even in lingerie and women’s jewelry stores the clerks were all males (imagine our discomfort when the clerk leered at us when Nancy and I asked to purchase sanitary napkins).

I go back to work next Monday. Triple sad face. I hope to spend the next few days well, however. I have so many books to finish reading!

When in doubt, haggle.

I’ve been sitting here squinting at my laptop for the last eon trying to articulate my words to show how powerful my trip to India was. So far, I’m coming up with nothing.

Because, really, how can simple pixels and words really describe the experiences I’ve had over the past 40 days? A good writer would probably scoff and call me incompetent, but hey, I’m not a good writer and it takes me an age just to send a coherent email.

If I could put it simply, India was… pure chaos.

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